Thursday, June 16, 2011

Way back when...

I'm constantly remembering "old times" & as I look back I seem to remember the "bad times" as Good times & often some of the most enjoyable adventures.

In my apartment circa 2004, we were the broke-est we'd ever been & we really thought we struggled along. Making family dinners with our roommates was pretty much an ever night thing to save money & on the other nights we all pitched in to buy a pizza or dug up change to buy Jr. Bacons from Wendy's.  It almost always seems like the more simpler things are, the easier, & more appreciative you are of them.

For entertainment during college friends & I would take my basketball over to the park to have fun or taking a trip over to Taco Bell for lunch with our piddly change.  One of my awesome friends shared my love for watching movies on a rainy day & so a lot of the time we would go to each others' houses & hang out watching movies & napping.

As far as tastes go I've definitely noticed a huge difference in my wants, I used to enjoy simple things; i.e. nachos used to be: tostitos with cheese & now they consist of tons of veggies, meat, cheese, & sour cream! Desserts used to be jell-o & Reddi Whip & now I love pies & Cobblers.

Anywho that's my speal for this blog post, mainly just to talk about how times have changed.
How have times changed your life?

Sunday, June 12, 2011

How did I get here & more importantly: how do I get out?

I know that tons of other blog posts have started off as: So I have this friend, but I really do actually have this friend, well I don't know so we'll just leave it as Neighbor for now...

Like most folks who live in Neighborhoods I have Neighbors, on both sides. The neighbors on my left are very to themselves & create a ruckus at times which isn't too fun but most of the time they are just to themselves.  Now my neighbors to the right, I like(d) them; they are fun to hang out with, she wasn't raised in a box so we can actually have normal adult conversations. She actually has Facebook & texts, she offers to watch my son even though I don't need her to, just on the principle of being a good neighbor. I guess you could say that I like her, the hard part is that she still communicates with another neighbor who was raised in a box & can't seem to have 2 friends at once as we hung out everyday and now she can't seem to form a sentence to talk to me.  It's just all wrong in so many ways & I don't like it.

I used to have a pretty bad relationship with a past friend & it took tons of work but I remember feeling the exact same way inside; just Sad. There wasn't anything I could do, although I wanted to change the way I felt then. Eventually it got better & we are back to the way our old friendship was but with this girl I could care less & I don't want to work on it with her.  However, I do care about my Neighbor & I would like for her to see how much of a snake the other girl is & the way she treats me.  I never speak on the other girl to the Neighbor because I like to take the high road but how much can I freaking take here?

I may post more later but right now I'm too close to the situation & I'm just tired of being sad, I just hope that I can get out of this & be in a much happier place soon.